How the Truth Sets You Free | Have a Little Faith
White lies can cover your ass, but, warns Pastor Nadia Bolz-Weber, they start to cover up the real you, too
NADIA BOLZ-WEBER: I'm pretty sure we all carry secrets. As the old chain smoking guy in my 12 step program says, you're only as sick as your secrets, kid. We all hide things for ourselves, like the times we have to erase our browser history, or the time we lied about ourselves to get a job, or the times we flirt online with people who aren't our spouses.
It's a common thing people do. We make lame excuses to get out of commitments, or we blame other people for the fact that we can't show up. The list kind of goes on. Often, we fool ourselves with these excuses, but there are times when the truth won't let us go.
I mean, sure, I can avoid other people's scrutiny by telling my bullshit story over and over to anyone who will listen, but I know the truth. The last thing I want is for any light to be cast on the darkness I've spent so much energy curating, and protecting, and actually enjoying.
There's a popular misconception that religion, Christianity specifically, is about knowing the difference between good and evil, so we can choose the good. But being good has never set me free the way truth has. I have to think about all the times I've substituted being good or maybe just appearing to be good for truth.
When someone like me will go to superhero lengths to avoid the truth runs out of options, when I'm found out, or too exhausted to pretend anymore, it feels like the truth might crush me. And that's right. The truth does crush me. But the instant it crushes me, it somehow puts me back together into something more real.